Short Story

The day I died was not a particular day for the rest of the World… There was not a single soul that cared about me… That day the World did not stop, the birds kept singing the air kept blowing and the people walking, coming and going.

Now that I have time to think back, my life was not different from someone else, I was not a great person, neither a very interesting one. It was full of abandonment and disappointment, there was no love in it, except for my parents’, and I never found the one, that person that would walk with me forever and ever.

My childhood was nothing of relevance, I was invisible to most of my classmates, no one really took notice of me, of the little girl sitting beside them, eager to talk, to share, to play. So I grew up, still the same, I always went thru life as if no one could see me.

What is the use of life if you are invisible? What did I have to do to be noticed? To be loved? To be taken into account? “If I could do it all over again what would I do different?” You may ask. Well, nothing really, life is just a bitter disappointment one after the other. I wouldn’t choose life… I’d rather be one with the Universe, be pure energy and nothing else.

Was it really life if there was never any passion in it? I always had the feeling that the life force in me was a wasted one, that it could go to someone else that really needed it, that really wanted it. Now that I’m dead I’m glad, I’m glad I don’t have to feel guilty anymore for not wanting to live when there is a lot of people fading, dying, who want to keep living, and I was the complete opposite… Hoping for the day I die…

I never had the courage to take my life, it’s the most cowardly thing to do, but it requires a lot of courage. To go against nature itself, we are programmed to fight for survival, no matter what, how can you fight against that instinct?

Now I’m here, wondering, how come no one really cared that I died? How come no one ever noticed me? Why was I a ghost all my life? If I ever meet the maker I will tell Him (or Her) that life is not fair, and that people without purpose shouldn’t be sent to Earth, and if we all have one, then we should be sent with a manual “Finding your Purpose for Dummies” or something like that.

The wait is annoying, I’m still conscious; I see my body lying on the ground, there’s nothing I can do but wait until someone notices I’m finally dead… When will the Angels or Devils come to take me away? What’s going to happen now? A writer once said “I hope there is no afterlife, because it would be very boring to be me for eternity”. I agree… When will I cease to be?

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  1. EsauS
    Oct 19, 2010 @ 23:45:08

    YES!!! It’s So EMO!

    however, i really enjoyed the reading! The beggining reminds me the movie “After Life” (2009)

    Sometimes the english bring us a smooth mask covering our feelings and let us explore in public!

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  2. Benjamín García
    Oct 17, 2010 @ 12:42:32

    Everything begins with choice.

    This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.

    Choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without.

    You didn’t come here to make the choice. You’ve already made it. You’re here to try to understand why you made it.

    “The Matrix”

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  3. Flash
    Oct 15, 2010 @ 13:34:38

    Estaba escuchando esto cuando leí la historia…

    http://www.freshdjsets.com/downtempo/2010/05/half-seas-over-gilles-peterson-worldwide/

    Nada más ayuda a sentirte triste después de leer =\

    Jeje ¿Has estado escuchando canciones de Leonar Cohen últimamente?

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